Rob left on Friday morning, and I managed to keep my weepiness to a minimum until last night, when we spoke on Skype for the first time since he left. I haven’t been able to stop crying since then.
This is the kind of drama that cripples me, you guys. It’s the kind that makes it hard for me to concentrate on anything else. The kind that makes me unable to eat. The kind that causes me to burst into tears at any given moment.
I’m trying to hold it all together for another week and a half (until the semester ends), but I’m waaayyy behind on editing a friend’s book, my head is pounding like crazy, and all I want to do is watch back-episodes of Grey’s Anatomy, eat fruit in bed all day, and finally finish editing the two books that I should have finished editing a week ago. I decided to skip out on my Logic Class because a classmate borrowed my notes and never returned them, and I don’t think I could handle sitting in a classroom for 3 hours just to fail multiple quizzes. And, and, and—
I just- I.don’t.know.
I’m sad and feeling constrained by this sadness, and even though I know it will lift soon enough, I can’t help but wallow in it. I can’t help but actually feel it. I just- *sigh* I can’t do anything else.
Forgive me for slacking, world. I think I need to take a breather from everything and just try to stay sane.