Just because I know that I can do better.
But then I think of what better means – more financial security? a more attractive partner? someone who doesn’t have as many issues? – and I talk myself out of it.
Because this better business is confusing.
Because Love is supposed to be forever.
Because I know the saying about how the end of a relationship doesn’t mean failure, but only people who have failed at relationships say it.
And I don’t do failure.
Damn subjectivism, pride and my rebellious spirit. You make it so hard to know what I really want and need.